Grad Chapter: Honest moment

Dear Inspirations,

As of December 10th 2016, I am officially done with graduate school. (Inserts a fist pump) I am free from school!! I've graduated once again and this time it was different. I remember how amazing and stress free it was to graduate for the first time. There was so much adrenaline pumping and I looked at the world as a ocean. I was ready to take the world by storm.

Fast forward four years.... I'm married, I'm a mom and I guess you could say the world feels different.

Saturday felt amazing don't get me wrong. BUT the feeling was different. I felt a sense of pride, joy and true completion. I am the first one in my family mom and dad side to go to college. I was the first one to get my bachelors and currently the only one. I was also the first one to get my masters. I'm not saying this to brag. I'm saying this because I feel extremely grateful. Undergraduate I felt like I did it for my dad and my sisters. Graduate school was for me. I started the program single, but I ended it married and with a son.
So much growth as a woman.

Time flies and life does not wait for you to get ready!

Even though I graduated Saturday.... I am yet unemployed at this exact moment. (just typing that makes me cringe)
Despite being unemployed.. I know that greater is coming. I tell myself this daily and some days are harder to believe than others.
I will be the first to say that its very hard when it seems like nothing is looking up.

I'll be real honest and say that.. the weeks leading up to graduation I felt hopeless, discouraged, and really down and out. Everyone was asking "How do you feel are you excited?" I had to fake it.
I was having a hard time looking at graduation as an accomplishment, because of my current job situation.

I was trying really hard to shake it. I was having a inner battle.  I have those moments all the time. I try really hard not to let it effect my personal life, but it does.

I'm working on that as a person.

I know in months to come things might get tough, but I also believe that God will make a way.
He always does. Some how I'm always okay.

I believe in God.

I have some amazing people in my life that don't let me beat myself up.
I have real friends in my corner rooting for me.
I have a wonderful husband and a son who loves me dearly. Not for what I have, but for who I am.
Because of those things I must go on.

I closed yet another chapter of my life.
It's time for a new one.

Only God knows what's next for me. Whatever it is I AM READY.
I'm going to focus in and get ready for my blessings.

This blog is for me as a reminder of where I am in my life. It is also for you.
If you feel like giving up... DON'T
If you feel like you aren't standing in the right place... YOU ARE
If you feel like you should stand on faith and do something else ...DO IT
If you feel like you are struggling and no one knows how you feel... I DO
If you feel like things won't get better... THEY WILL

Until next time

DearJasmineP

#Dearwoman

Dear Inspirations,

Last night, I had the pleasure of being a Queen in a room full of Queens. I had on my invisible crown, dressed in all black, ruby woo (for lips)  and curls for the pics!  I was truly happy to be apart of  the
 #Justwordstour it was moving and inspirational.

 The four poets were:

 Perry “Vision” DiVirgilio (@Visionpoet)

 Michael E. Reid (@justmike_) 

Jamarr Hall (@jamarrhall) and A.J McQueen (@ajmcqueen)

 

  At first I wasn't going to go because of the "tropical storm Bill", but I am so glad I was able to make it. I was really surprised that they didn't cancel. You know how some people are about canceling. (Oh
 look it's 30% chance of rain #CANCEL). They made it so I got out in the weather as well. I had already been stalking Mike via instagram and twitter asking him to come to Houston for months.

 The entire night I sat there wrapping  my mind around words that uplifted me as a woman. 

This was my first time meeting all of them in person and it won't be my last.
 After reading Michaels  book #Dearwoman for the first time I felt empowered by a man other than family to be a better woman.

 For the first time in my life I felt it was okay to be pretty, smart, bold, beautiful, and sexy without it truly being a problem for a man. I use to think that I had to dumb it down a little, because no man would ever want to be with someone who is  "ALL OF THAT"

 I use to meet guys all the time and I never wanted to seem extremely smart or share that I have plans of being the next Oprah.

Most of the time I would meet guys hoping that they would  see how amazing I was and not just an object. Dearwoman is so relatable to the girl that I use to be. It touched me on many ways that I can't even begin to share if you haven't read the book.

 After reading Dearwoman I know that those so call men were just boys and they couldn't handle my crown. In the words of Mike "I needed bigger hands to carry it"

They couldn't handle all of the woman that I was in the process of becoming.

 I love Dearwoman so much because its real. It's not one of those books that words are forced on the page by some printing company. It's honest poetry.

Last night made me remember how much I love poetry and art. They were all equally great and I feel like as a woman I should be walking in my purpose to inspire people as well. Last night added fuel to my fire and it made me want to be better at everything.

I know your probably thinking well "Did it really take four strange men to make you want to be better?" No, it was more than just that.

Sometimes you just need to be in a room full of Queens.

Sometimes you just need to see something new.

 Sometimes you just need a tiny reminder that you are a Queen.

Sometimes you just need to know that someone feels just like you.

Sometimes you just need to believe in yourself.

No matter what it is or how I do it I know that I need to do it.

Mike shared that this is his purpose and I truly believe it and I could feel it at the same time. I will forever love how he touched my life with just words on a page.

Thank you to Chaniqua who was ready to risk it all in the weather with me to be my date at the show! (I LOVE YOU)

Thank you to Visionpoet for his ability to make me laugh and want to cry in the same breath. (YASS)

Thank you to AJ McQueen for your truth and words that made me and the people at my table tear up.

Thank you to Jamarr Hall for being a multi- talented guy. Your voice is amazing and for  sharing your situation (ships).

Last, but not least..

Thank you Mike for sharing your story with us on how you got started. Thank you for giving Queens a book that we can truly relate to. Thank you for being that voice for women that are in those situations that your write about. Thank you for helping us walk away. Thank you for letting us know to "never to take the jewels off of our crown"

Pictures from #Dearwomantour

 

 The lighting tried to sabotage our picture, but we still made it happen. (This means so much)

 

Views from my snapchat

 Sanerica Davis and AJ Mcqueen

 

 Mike handed out a few books and he even signed them at the end! (THANKS)

 

 From right to left VisionPoet, Me and Chaniqua

 

 From right to left  Jamarr Hall, Chaniqua, and I discussing the selfie stick.

 Two queens sharing a selfie.

Inspirations this blog was to remind you all to walk in your purpose.

To pick up a book that you haven't finished.

It was also a reminder for me to believe that anything is truly possible.

Love Jasmine P.

Make someone's day

Dear Inspirations,

I spoke with a friend yesterday about a number of things. Mainly this person spoke about how at times they do things for people and they don't expect anything in return. I could agree with that statement whole heartedly.

The person also, said that at times it would be nice if someone thought of them the way they thought of others.

Could you imagine a world where everyone thought of someone else besides themselves?

I think that could possibly could bring world peace. Somehow people might react different. Somehow people might wake up in a better mood. Think about.

Whenever it's Christmas and someone gets you a gift that you didn't expect at all.
How does that make you feel?
Happy right?
What about when you find some money on the ground?
What about when someone says... "I like that shirt"
You feel like "man I am having a great day"
What about the time someone offers to pay for your food and you say "no I am ok"

And they do it anyway. These are the moments that the universe needs more of. These are the moments that could change your life or someone else’s.

I am a believer in random acts of kindness.
I am also a strong believer in showing gratitude to others.

Do we know this statement to be true?

WE ARE ALL GOING THROUGH LIFE.
Why not help make someone else’s life a little bit better?

I am not saying go out and spend your paycheck on your rude coworker.
I am not saying give a compliment to ever person you see.
I am also not saying go without for another individual.
I am simply saying...

Think of someone else.
Think of a way to help someone in need.
Think of how you can possibly make someone’s day.

P.s. It’s almost Friday.

Yours Truly

Jasmine P.

 

Proof

Dear Inspirations,

In the misdt of me not having the best week of my life I reached a breakthrough of some sort.
I know this might not mean  much to you, but it means everything to me.
One of my post on Instagram reached 105 likes.
I assume a lot of people could relate to the post.
I must agree! It was one of those YES moments for me as well.
As I stated before I never created the page for the likes, I created it to help myself.
I considered it to be open therapy.
Once I continued posting  I realized it was also helping others.
When I say others I mean people that sometimes need an extra kick in motivation.
I am honestly proud of the growth in numbers that the page reaches daily.
You can say that I feel a sense of graditude when people comment saying "I needed this" or "right on time".
 Moments like that reinterate that DearJasmineP serves its true purpose.
To inspire. To motivate. To give hope. To share truths.
 I  know that I have been facing a lot of trials this week. Mentally and emotionally, but its always a storm before the calm right?

I know that I am facing these situations to make me a stronger person.
Some day I am sure I will get to write the world's best selling novel that will allow me to add moments like this.

You know those "I came from nothing.... One room... roaches.. and we didn't have any running water".
I think those stories are all similar to my story minus the roaches and the running water.

This blog is just to say thank you to all of the people that follow and like  DearJasmineP.
You are appreciated.
The struggle is going to end one day. 
The struggle is worth it.
The struggle can't last forever.

 

Yours Truly

Jasmine P.

Motivation for Monday

Dear Inspirations, 


Today I woke up feeling on top of the world!  Although my spring break is over and I am back to work I woke up with no hesitation.

 I think my hair is on point, my outfit was together and I even feel well rested.

It's almost strange because  over the weekend I suffered a setback.

 I think this is me really, really trying to practice what I preach wholeheartedly.

It's the first day of the week and I decided not to let anything steal my joy.

What's odd is the moment I said that it seem like the devil was like "BOOM! I am going to get you"

I had a small wardrobe malfunction now that alone can take you from a 10 to a 0, I was able to utilize my fashionista skills to pull it together.

Then my original plan for work was reassigned, (What I planned for today was no longer important and the copies I made no longer mattered) Don't you just hate when that happens.

Instantly I was  hit with a thousand negative thoughts. I quickly recovered those thoughts with a quick prayer.

Why am I sharing? I just wanted to let you know that even when you plan to be positive somethings will be thrown at you. The devil will TRY YOU.

 Even when you are prepared things will go wrong. Just TRY TO KEEP being POSITIVE. 

It's only Monday and I am sure there is more to come, but one thing I do know for sure is that I will keep going in this positive direction.  " My setbacks are a setup for a great comeback, This is not the end for me, this is only the beginning".

I know I have probably said this a thousand times and I am sure that I keep starting over and that's okay too.

Love Jasmine P. 

News Flash

Dear inspirations,

We are back at it once again with a Monday ahead of us.

 Check out the story written by a great friend of mine!

http://casilyasmith.com/dear-jasmine-p-gains-following-through-spreading-positivity-online/


I had the pleasure of being interviewed by Casilya Smith over the weekend for her homework assignment. I know it might seem like a small thing to you, but honestly it is a great honor for me. As I spoke to Casilya I felt like all of my efforts have never really went in vain and the things that I do truly matter. I use to care about reaching millions of people and now that I am older I realize that fame isn't what I want.  I am proud of the progress I have made and I am proud of where I am with DearJasmineP at this exact moment.

I told myself that this would be a great year and two months in it's already going really well!!

Thank you for believing in me. There is more to come!

Love Jasmine P.

Protected

Dear Inspirations,


Often we have trouble finding the joy in small things I know I do sometimes.
This morning I woke up late and I was really in a funk at first like "crap I'm going to be late for work" Being late sometimes could be God's protection from something.

Sometimes being late is a sign that you need to go to bed earlier. It's for you to decide though.

On my morning drive today there were two accidents both of them could have easily been me.
Today I choose to believe that me being late was God's protection on my life.

Yes I was late for work but I am also alive and well. I believe that's enough to be happy about and enough to smile about.

It's Thursday one day stands between us and the weekend!

If you were looking for a reminder here it is. Live in the small joys. Even if it causes you to be late.

Love Jasmine P.

 

The notebook

Dear Inspirations,

This is for anyone that thinks love doesn't exist are that the fairytale that you desire doesn't exist. We all want love even if we don't say it or even if the past we knew as love was a little dark. My personal experience in love was pretty rocky until now. I never really knew that I could even feel this way and the feelingwould be so amazing. Even at this exact moment  that it's hard to describe.

From the moment we met I know for sure that I knew he was the one. We were on our first date and it just felt really weird but not in a bad way. I couldn't explain it but at that moment I described it as an "array of emotions". The date went well and the dates after that were even better.

How did we meet?  I met Adeola through the help of my cousin and we instantly clicked. His pick up line was so cute on my profile bio I said I was "almost perfect" he responded with "your perfect" from that moment I knew he was the guy for me. Without going into to many details Addy is the perfect man for me because of all of the qualities he posses.

He is everything in a man that I ever wanted. You know how you meet some people and your like well I don't like this or that..  or they do such and such to make you mad all the time. Or maybe you disagree on a lot of things. Well this is totally the opposite. Now of course we have our fights and we disagree but the love really surpasses the arguments. His personality and my personality go hand and hand. It's almost like God really knew and crafted him with me in mind.

So here's what you really came here for... The proposal.

I remember that night the weather didn't permit for our original plans (The Field of Lights)  so instead We went to dinner at one of our favorite restaurants (Kona Grill). He was the perfect gentlemen all night as usual, When dinner was over he insisted on getting a red box movie.





He rode around to three different ones looking for the movie of his choice. When we got home he put the movie in and it was The Notebook. I wanted to cry instantly because it's my favorite movie. We watched the movie and right at the  the scene of the guy proposing he got up and got on his knee.

"I love you and I want to be with you for the rest of my life, you make me a better person each day and I want you to be my wife. He said some more sweet stuff, but I was in such a shock that I cried.

Then the words we all wait our whole life to hear came off his lips "Will you marry me"? At that moment I said yes in my mind without one reservation. I knew I wanted forever, I knew I wanted him to be the father of my kids. Names picked and all.

I said yes!! Adeola is going to be my husband and I can't wait to be his wife!

Our love is unique because it didn't take us years to figure out that we wanted to be together forever. It's so true when people say you know when you meet the one. I'm sure you have questions on when the date is? What are the colors and what the plan is. Currently, we have a date in mind. No further details have been confirmed.

I look forward to spending my life with him and everything that comes with it.

I wrote this blog in hopes to inspire you to keep your heart open to true  love. Believe me when I say it will come. In my case it came when I least expected it. Personally, I was ready to give it up, call it quits, and get a dog.

But then Love called me and I answered and the rest is still being written.

Me: Our love is Almost Perfect

Him: It is perfect.

Me: It is.

"So it's not gonna be easy, it's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever. You and me. Everyday.”  - The Notebook

Ps: Stay tuned for #TheOguntugawedding

Love Jasmine P.



 

2015 Vow

Dear Inspirations,

 

Consistency is key in anything that you do.

So from here on out I promise to give you some type of consistency.

I will blog once a week in hopes to keep your attention and to reach out to you.

I realize that I have a gift to give the world and for me it is such a big commitment

In 2015 I really want to change my life and change yours.

 

So, please stick with me, share my blog and follow this Journey. Great things are bound to happen.

 

Love Jasmine P.

DearJasmineP Gifts for Xmas

Dear Inspirations,

This weekend I had the privilege to volunteer at the George R. Brown Convention Center. It was such a joy to be a part of such an awesome event 20 years running. I remember years ago being one of the kids that received a toy in the audience. I remember how it made me feel inside to have someone give me a Christmas present. As I stood on the food line adding wieners to buns and putting chicken nuts on plates it gave me so much life.

As you know I started a shirt campaign in hopes to make enough money to bless a family or individual with something for Christmas. Well, the first set of shirts didn't go as planned and honestly apart of me wanted to give up. I kinda felt defeated, but then I realized that maybe my shirt goal of 75 was to high and sometimes you have to start small. So I relaunched the campaign with a goal of 10 shirts and I lowered the donation amount. Within two days we made the goal!! It gave made me so happy inside that We raised $53!

After we reached the goal I had to figure out how I was going to get a family nominated. I social media buzzed as usual and  in two days I received the first email. I was up late that night and I had just said "I'm going to sleep". When I read that email about 3 precious kids in need my heart was moved so much that I couldn't go to sleep. I had to do something and it was bigger than just the 53$ so the next day I made a few phone calls and tried to see what I could find.

That's when I found out about the Toy Drive, I knew it happened in Houston every year but I wasn't sure when. I signed them up and I even signed myself and Young Ladies of Elegance up to volunteer.

I looked forward to the event for the following week and as time got closer I only hoped that the kids would be able to make it.

They did!!! Their mom had no idea what the event was or who even signed her up. She explained to me that she is working two jobs to make sure that they have a good Christmas. I watched tears fill her eyes and I watched her beautiful kids smile.

That moment changed my life forever. Don't get me wrong I have been giving all year and it made me happy but nothing was like the smile on their faces. They hugged me like I had known them forever they were holding my hands like I was their big sister. The event went on and we hung out when I wasn't serving food.

At the end they got their toy, took a picture with Santa and got their faces painted.

Giving from the heart is what I know I am here to do. Honestly, they can have the 9-5 and the meet the deadlines. I just want to travel the world changing lives and giving to people that's when I am at my happiest.

I will be visiting those kids again on Christmas Eve with another Christmas gift with the funds from the shirt campaign.

Thank you to everyone that donated and gave to the cause. A big thank you to Shelia Jackson Lee and Young Ladies of Elegance/Young Men of Character. Also a thank you to the person that nominated the family. Last but not least Thank you to Carolina Rodriguez #CarosavesChristmas and Adeola Oguntuga for believing in me.

 

 

 

 

I hope that you felt inspired enough to help someone in need or just put a smile on someone's face.

 

Love JasmineP.

Day (dream)

Dear Inspirations


What's the dream?
What's the goal?
Where do you want to go?

Where do you envision yourself in 5 years?

At the end of the day what is the one thing you must be doing?

Now,

What does it take to get there?
What will you do to fuel that dream?
Why will you keep going?


Now,

Go and don't stop until its complete.

Reflections of October

Dear Inspirations,

As the month of October comes to a rapid close, I can only feel an array of emotions. in 27 days I learned more about myself than I thought I would. The idea of giving excites me and I spend a lot of time trying to give. I assume it to be my role in society and when I'm giving I am at my happiest.

While life this month seems to have flew by I found my self bask in in the goodness of small joys. When I choose not to measure my life up against other perople. I now  know that I am doing pretty darn good. People can tell you all day but until it hits you is when it really sinks in.

  I can't tell you if it is the change of events in my life that has me feeling the way I do but I will say that I have throughy enjoyed October.

I've kept a close knit friendship with the people who really matter in my life. It's not that others don't matter to its just that some choose to be who they are.  This month I learned not to force it, Man it sounds so easy coming out. But forcing it has been my way for the longest time.
What happens when you chill? Sometimes the chips stack up and things go like you wanted them to.

Today I took one step closer to the next move on my monoply board. Grand prize coming soon.

In other news guess who's tuning older in 3 days? Me.
100 days ago I was freaking out about it and even kind of upset.
But today I must say "I'm ready for the next level of my life".

Whatever it entails I'll be merry with it. I know life will bring storms and there will be times when I feel like giving up but because of what I believe and who I serve I can't.

I won't.

Thank you to those in my circle who put up with me on a daily bases. The people that love me weather I have $2.00 or 20,000.

So before I blow out the candle on my imaginary cake. This time I would like to make an open wish.
I wish for happiness, love and most of all a open heart to accept what ever happens.

Closes eyes***** Blow........

 

 

 

Love Jasmine P.

Cancer Awareness

Dear Inspirations

The past 10 days of the October Gratitude challenge have been great. I've thoroughly enjoyed giving to others and making them feel good. At the same token I have been working on a Cancer Awareness Gala. Working on the Gala has taught me a lot about myself and about others.

I realize I love planning events. I love watching things come together from the ground up.

This year we have 15 cancer survivors ranging from the ages of 6-75. I have worked closely to contact them, and keep them updated on the Gala. It has been a task and a challenge at times.

I guess I never really realize how detrimental cancer could be until a couple of months ago. I had heard of people having cancer but no one that was close to me. In August, My best friend lost her father to cancer a couple of months ago another found out about cancer. Each time I wished there was something I could say besides "It will be ok, or I'm here for you. Losing someone can be extremely tough but to lose them to a disease that you might not have been able to prevent is even worse.

With this month being Cancer awareness month I am so grateful that I was able to help put together an event. The gala will honor people that have survived cancer and a salute to those who have lost their fight.

As I worked on this event I've felt so much strength from each one of the survivors.

I've felt courage, love and hope.

I've felt empowered.

I was able to donate a dress to one of the survivors that I really wanted to wear but it didn’t fit.

Talking with one of the survivors she said that she didn’t consider herself a survivor because she was going to get hit by a bus or die from cancer.

That statement touched my heart.

What do you say to someone after that?

While some people have lost their lives I do believe that anyone that is currently fighting cancer and yet alive is a SURVIVOR.

I hope that I am never diagnosed with Cancer and I hope that they find a cure for it sooner than later.

This blog is to inspire you to keep going.

Know that your situation could be worse.

This is not the end.

You can make it.

I believe in you.

P.S- Stay tune for pictures.

Love Jasmine P.

 

Almost

Dear you.

 

 It is as if you fell out of the sky and she was walking by.

She doesn't think you could have showed up at a better time.

You were in her dreams, but now you're here as the real thing.

If she falls I hope you catch her.

She hopes to be in your arms forever no matter the weather.

Usually her thoughts consume her and swallow her, but in this case it hasn't

shes just watching time.

 

Where have you been all her life is the the only thing that keeps coming to mind?

 

There's more to be said, so many things to explain.

Right now the only thing that makes sense is why other things didn't work out.

 

To say that she feels differently about a lot of things would be yet another understatement.

 

She hopes that you promise to put up with her as a headache.

 

Flaws and all.

How they met is a mystery but how this story ends is a fairy tale.

This is all for now.

Love, Jasmine P.

 

No Mother To Me.

Here's a poem I wrote last year. I was really down and out about the situation.

It was actually published in The Panther newspaper




No Mother to Me


So much could be said but instead I'll say nothing.

It's so crazy that I never wanted anything from you.

 I never needed your money, never needed shelter from you or security.

I wanted something so simple from you that you made it complex.

It’s a lot question of mine that will cotinue to be unanswered.

The pieces from the puzzle just didn't quite make it out of the store.

And these shoes came with no strings.

Sad to say that I put this thing called life together with no manual from you.

You couldn't answer 3 questions correctly about me aside from the basics and I couldn't either.

Let’s not pretend because it’s the American way because in actuality I don't know you and  you don't know me.

We are almost strangers to each other

We are not in any form or shape similar.

All this time I've been trying to get close to you and do so many things to make you proud or to get some kind of gratitude. Some kind of encouragement but it never happened that way.

Money can’t buy a mother.

And no actress can play that role better than the mothers who have been all in since birth.

For the pain that I feel no medicine can be prescribed.

we have the same last name and we share the same blood that's it.

And for that I'll say you are no mother to me.

My Truth.

Dear Inspirations

This week has been a great week; I've received amazing emails, and text messages from you all. I really hope that I have helped some of you out. I wanted to write to you to get some advice. We all have problems; we all need a little help so here I am asking you. I want you all to know a little bit about me. Often you share with me so now it’s my turn.

This is my truth so here goes.

Since the age of 3 my mother has been in and out of my life. I accepted that she was young and needed to live her life so I lived with my grandmother. At first I never could really understand what I did to deserve it.  She missed birthdays, holidays, and school engagements. Just recently she missed my college graduation. I had already prepared myself for it though. I can say that I've been blessed to have amazing people in my life but I have always had a small void in my heart because of my mother’s absence. I consider myself really lucky to have the people that are in my life. I know there are plenty of women and girls that have been through the exact same thing. All I ever wanted was for her to support me, support my dreams, and to be my #1 cheerleader.

Just recently I did a documentary with a friend about some of the baggage I carry around as a woman in this documentary I found out how broken I really am inside. To be honest until that moment I didn’t really feel like it was baggage. But in actuality I carry around anger, jealousy, hurt and confusion some days. Now you read this and think (NO not Jasmine) yes me. I smile because I'm greater than all of that. I smile because a piece of me has overcome. Only a piece though.

The details on why she wasn't there for me or everything that happened isn’t really important. Someday I hope to be able to actually look her in the face and say hey I forgive you for everything, I accept you for who you are, and everything else is in the past.

I haven’t reached that point and I’m not sure when I will. I ask God daily to help me with this constant struggle because I need to be a better person I need that void that I feel to disappear. I know I am stronger because of the hurt and because of the broken promises but someday I hope to stand in the mirror to say "I'm over it"

So here is where you come into play. How do I do it? Where should I start? How does one truly let go of the hurt to move forward? Praying is the only answer I have.

Email me your responses @DearJasmineP@gmail.com

Thanks in advance

Love in a hopeless place

Dear Inspirations 

It's 12/12/12! Yesterday a inspiration contacted me about love and how they don't believe in it or marriage. I know right lol I felt like that once in my life it was so hard to believe that a man or a woman could love me so much but over time I started to understand it. 

After 4 years of knowing my current boyfriend as just my friend we grew closer and closer exploring our friendship. I think it was easier to love him because he has a lot of qualities that I really can appreciate in a man. I've been in many relationships where I felt like it was lust and I felt like I was just wasting time. Love is something that takes a whole lot of time! But we know this If anyone is reading this and you don't believe in love I'm asking you to give it a chance someday but a real chance. 

It was 4 years ago he was standing in the club (hopeless place) we were staring at each other and we thought we knew each other. We got to know each other, we fell off, got back on, saw other people, and disagreed on a lot of stuff. Currently we've been in a relationship for a year and I feel the love, it's love! Didn't happen over night it took time, it feels amazing. 

We found love in a hopeless place

We found love in a hopeless place

Shine a light through an open door

Love a life I will divide

Turn away 'cause I need you more

Feel the heartbeat in my mind

 (You know the rest) 

When you do find that one person you will know and it will feel that way! So I'm told! Lol 

Small thought. 


Love Jasmine P