Not next, NOW

Dear Inspirations,

Happy New Year! I'm sure we are all secretly feeling like "New year New me". I wanted to write some long caption on FaceBook about how 2016 tried to take me out, but instead I will share it here.

2016 was a year of learning, growth, maturity, inspiration, fear, depression, and many other things. I can say that it truly tested my patience, my faith in God and my strength as a person. I mean let's face a lot happened in my life last year. I became a mom. I became a wife. I also finished school.

Someone asked me just the other day "how did you do it all"? I had to stop and think about that question. It was all GOD. There were days in 2016 that I didn't know if I was going to make it through. See the thing is there are a lot of things that I don't share. There are a handful of people in this world that know my story.

Not that I am a shamed of them it's just some things I choose to leave out. So when you say 2016 was a rough year for you I can relate. However, I made it through. When you look at my pictures on social media you wouldn't know that I was laid off from my job, you wouldn't know that I was fighting depression. You wouldn't know that I was stressed out trying to balance all of the things I had going on. You wouldn't know that I was learning how to be a mom and a wife all at the same time.

2016 tested my FAITH in God, but I know God is real because I'm still here.
I'm glad that year is behind me and I can walk into 2017 with my head up high.
I know that God took me through 2016 to show me that he is yet God.
I believe that he will give me everything I prayed for.
But wait.... a lot of the things I prayed for in 2013, 2014, 2015 he's already blessed me with.

I remember praying for God to send me a husband.
I remember praying for God to bless me with a new car.
I remember praying for God to bless me with a child.
I remember praying for God to help me move into my own apartment.
I asked God to help me complete my masters.

Those things have already come to past! So, again I know that God will give me favor.
2016 was a year of progress and success.
It might not have felt good, but we made it through.

2017, Will not be a new year, new me... It will be a new year, better me.
I'm walking through doors,
I'm going to believe that I deserve everything that I have already prayed for.

My blessings have already started pouring in.
One of my good friends reminded me that Now is my time. Not next, but NOW.

So inspirations, I challenge you to believe.
I challenge you to start right where you are and make a change in your life.

I believe you can.

I am going to write more. I have to.

Until next time,

DearJasmineP 

Because God works

Dear Inspirations, 

Why is it that when we are going through we have a hard time believing it's going to work out? 

It's not until after its worked out that we are able to relax and rejoice in what God has done for us. 

I don't want to be that person that's worried that God won't answer my prayers. In the midst of my test and in the midst of my storm I want to already be rejoicing that he has brought me out. 

I want to be so rooted in God that my faith lets me see it already worked out. 

I want it to become such a routine where I don't have to worry. 

Why can't we trust God? When our whole world is upside down, we must believe that he will fix it.

To many times as humans we sit and wonder "how am I going to make it, how will I get through this" 

Today I remind you that God has already worked it. Your life is going as planned. God has heard your cry. God has heard your prayer. No matter what the situation is.. Know that God has went ahead and answered. It's all in a matter of timing. We ask for so much and sometimes he just wants us to be patient. 

Will you believe God today? 

Will you believe that your blessing is just  on the other side of that test? 

Yes it might be hard and we might not want to go through it, but believe that it's already done! 

Happy Monday! 

The fish bowl

Dear Inspirations,  

I feel forced to think of my life as a huge bowl. 

A bowl in which I'm inside of trying to get out of. 

I've been forced to find myself sinking in this imaginary bowl or sometimes soaking like a fish. 

I saw people climbing out of my exact bowl. I saw people getting in my fish bowl too. 

I knew I wanted to be out of it. 

I knew I needed to be on the outside of this bowl. 

I could hear the voices saying "just keep swimming". 

My fins were tired. 

My heart was to small to continue. 

I knew if I gave up now there would be no story to tell. 

There would be no one that could tell my story like I would.

I was in the bowl trying to get out.

No one to rescue me but me. 

She kept swimming. 

One day she got out. 

Love 

Jasmine P.

Motivation for Monday

Dear Inspirations, 


Today I woke up feeling on top of the world!  Although my spring break is over and I am back to work I woke up with no hesitation.

 I think my hair is on point, my outfit was together and I even feel well rested.

It's almost strange because  over the weekend I suffered a setback.

 I think this is me really, really trying to practice what I preach wholeheartedly.

It's the first day of the week and I decided not to let anything steal my joy.

What's odd is the moment I said that it seem like the devil was like "BOOM! I am going to get you"

I had a small wardrobe malfunction now that alone can take you from a 10 to a 0, I was able to utilize my fashionista skills to pull it together.

Then my original plan for work was reassigned, (What I planned for today was no longer important and the copies I made no longer mattered) Don't you just hate when that happens.

Instantly I was  hit with a thousand negative thoughts. I quickly recovered those thoughts with a quick prayer.

Why am I sharing? I just wanted to let you know that even when you plan to be positive somethings will be thrown at you. The devil will TRY YOU.

 Even when you are prepared things will go wrong. Just TRY TO KEEP being POSITIVE. 

It's only Monday and I am sure there is more to come, but one thing I do know for sure is that I will keep going in this positive direction.  " My setbacks are a setup for a great comeback, This is not the end for me, this is only the beginning".

I know I have probably said this a thousand times and I am sure that I keep starting over and that's okay too.

Love Jasmine P. 

Over (DUE)

Dear Inspirations,

I would like to personally apologize for taking a five week break like I did. The last few weeks have been mentally taxing. I had nothing positive to share in my life.  I know exactly why, but I would rather not share that part.  Honestly, I think I have been in some type of funk. I have woke up daily trying to shake it and I  even tried to trick  myself  into believing that "I was okay". Truth is I wasn't and I really haven't been.

Without going into detail to much I will say that I know that God has heard every cry and every prayer that I have asked him to do in my life. Now it's just a matter of time and patience.

 

Somedays  I just knew I couldn't go on.
Each time he would send me a sign.

 

He would send someone my way every time  to say "you can do this".

I always tell myself "things could be worse Jasmine". Things could easily be worse. I made it through worse things then this before right? What's crazy is each day I tried to wear a smile and each day it seem like someone tried to take it off my face. Yet I am still alive, still breathing.

 

Everyone still depends on me. Everyone still believes in me. How could I give up? How could I quit?

Truthfully, that's the only thing that has got me as far as I am today.

You can say that this blog is  a personal reminder and it's totally for me but I would like to think that you needed to hear this as well.

Today marks the beginning of spring break and the beginning of better days.

From here on out I will focus on my blessings. By faith its already done. I encourage you to do the same.

Love Jasmine P.

More.

Dear Inspirations,

The more I think about it, the more I hate this.  

The more it fustrates me.

The more I want to be in another place.

The more that I need life to hurry and fix itself.

The more I need GOD to fix this for me.

The more I think about it, the more I hate this.

I know whatever is up next for me has to be better than just this.
It has to be a better day a head of me.
Life must be getting ready to take a turn.
It has to be.

The more it fustrates me.

The more I want to be in another place.

The more I want more

The more I must find a way to leave.

That's what I tell myself.
Just has to be another way.

Forgive me for my moment.

Love Jasmine P.