Summer Ends with a Prayer

Dear God,

Today I ask that you heal my broken heart.
Turn my situation around.
I know there are many of things that I ask you for.

I know that all summer I've tried to keep the faith.
I tried to hold on to the rope that bruised my hand.
I put all my trust in you.

I have tried so hard to remain positive with all of the things happening around me.

I have cried so many times. I am sorry for questioning your work in my life.

I am sorry for doubting the things that you are capable of doing.

My faith has been wavering and I  have been selfish to think that you haven't heard my cry.

God please help me to be in a better state.
God change my attitude.
God make me over.
God give me the strength to fight all of my battles.

I know it is you that speaks and moves mountains on my behalf.

God forgive me for my evil thoughts and any ways that are not like you.

In Jesus name.

The fish bowl

Dear Inspirations,  

I feel forced to think of my life as a huge bowl. 

A bowl in which I'm inside of trying to get out of. 

I've been forced to find myself sinking in this imaginary bowl or sometimes soaking like a fish. 

I saw people climbing out of my exact bowl. I saw people getting in my fish bowl too. 

I knew I wanted to be out of it. 

I knew I needed to be on the outside of this bowl. 

I could hear the voices saying "just keep swimming". 

My fins were tired. 

My heart was to small to continue. 

I knew if I gave up now there would be no story to tell. 

There would be no one that could tell my story like I would.

I was in the bowl trying to get out.

No one to rescue me but me. 

She kept swimming. 

One day she got out. 

Love 

Jasmine P.

The wait

Dear Inspirations, 

She was tired of waiting in the wing.

She was tired of being the one unseen. 

You ever thought about just taking all you had and just running with it? 

Yea me either. 

She wanted to do something different. 

She wanted to be in another light. 

You ever thought about just forgetting your morals and values? 

You know saying yes to everything you once said "I'll never do that". 

 Yea, me either. 

She wanted to feel the passion behind waking up and clocking in at 8. 

She wanted those beach vacations. 

You ever thought about all the possible ways to make it? 

You ever wished that silver spoon existed for you? 

Yea me either. 

She wanted more. 

She wanted to make a difference. 

You ever found yourself in deep thought about everything? 

You ever said "I'm ok" knowing you weren't? 

She wanted to repeat over and over that she wasn't drowning. 

She wanted to be her own lifeguard. 

She rehearsed it and it sounded believable. 

I'm fine. I'll be ok. Yea I know. 

Help is on the way. Better days are ahead. She heard it all. 

Yet she waited in the wings. 

Yes she waited unseen. 

That person is me and the answer to those questions are yes. 

Love Jasmine P. 

#Dearwoman

Dear Inspirations,

Last night, I had the pleasure of being a Queen in a room full of Queens. I had on my invisible crown, dressed in all black, ruby woo (for lips)  and curls for the pics!  I was truly happy to be apart of  the
 #Justwordstour it was moving and inspirational.

 The four poets were:

 Perry “Vision” DiVirgilio (@Visionpoet)

 Michael E. Reid (@justmike_) 

Jamarr Hall (@jamarrhall) and A.J McQueen (@ajmcqueen)

 

  At first I wasn't going to go because of the "tropical storm Bill", but I am so glad I was able to make it. I was really surprised that they didn't cancel. You know how some people are about canceling. (Oh
 look it's 30% chance of rain #CANCEL). They made it so I got out in the weather as well. I had already been stalking Mike via instagram and twitter asking him to come to Houston for months.

 The entire night I sat there wrapping  my mind around words that uplifted me as a woman. 

This was my first time meeting all of them in person and it won't be my last.
 After reading Michaels  book #Dearwoman for the first time I felt empowered by a man other than family to be a better woman.

 For the first time in my life I felt it was okay to be pretty, smart, bold, beautiful, and sexy without it truly being a problem for a man. I use to think that I had to dumb it down a little, because no man would ever want to be with someone who is  "ALL OF THAT"

 I use to meet guys all the time and I never wanted to seem extremely smart or share that I have plans of being the next Oprah.

Most of the time I would meet guys hoping that they would  see how amazing I was and not just an object. Dearwoman is so relatable to the girl that I use to be. It touched me on many ways that I can't even begin to share if you haven't read the book.

 After reading Dearwoman I know that those so call men were just boys and they couldn't handle my crown. In the words of Mike "I needed bigger hands to carry it"

They couldn't handle all of the woman that I was in the process of becoming.

 I love Dearwoman so much because its real. It's not one of those books that words are forced on the page by some printing company. It's honest poetry.

Last night made me remember how much I love poetry and art. They were all equally great and I feel like as a woman I should be walking in my purpose to inspire people as well. Last night added fuel to my fire and it made me want to be better at everything.

I know your probably thinking well "Did it really take four strange men to make you want to be better?" No, it was more than just that.

Sometimes you just need to be in a room full of Queens.

Sometimes you just need to see something new.

 Sometimes you just need a tiny reminder that you are a Queen.

Sometimes you just need to know that someone feels just like you.

Sometimes you just need to believe in yourself.

No matter what it is or how I do it I know that I need to do it.

Mike shared that this is his purpose and I truly believe it and I could feel it at the same time. I will forever love how he touched my life with just words on a page.

Thank you to Chaniqua who was ready to risk it all in the weather with me to be my date at the show! (I LOVE YOU)

Thank you to Visionpoet for his ability to make me laugh and want to cry in the same breath. (YASS)

Thank you to AJ McQueen for your truth and words that made me and the people at my table tear up.

Thank you to Jamarr Hall for being a multi- talented guy. Your voice is amazing and for  sharing your situation (ships).

Last, but not least..

Thank you Mike for sharing your story with us on how you got started. Thank you for giving Queens a book that we can truly relate to. Thank you for being that voice for women that are in those situations that your write about. Thank you for helping us walk away. Thank you for letting us know to "never to take the jewels off of our crown"

Pictures from #Dearwomantour

 

 The lighting tried to sabotage our picture, but we still made it happen. (This means so much)

 

Views from my snapchat

 Sanerica Davis and AJ Mcqueen

 

 Mike handed out a few books and he even signed them at the end! (THANKS)

 

 From right to left VisionPoet, Me and Chaniqua

 

 From right to left  Jamarr Hall, Chaniqua, and I discussing the selfie stick.

 Two queens sharing a selfie.

Inspirations this blog was to remind you all to walk in your purpose.

To pick up a book that you haven't finished.

It was also a reminder for me to believe that anything is truly possible.

Love Jasmine P.

Make someone's day

Dear Inspirations,

I spoke with a friend yesterday about a number of things. Mainly this person spoke about how at times they do things for people and they don't expect anything in return. I could agree with that statement whole heartedly.

The person also, said that at times it would be nice if someone thought of them the way they thought of others.

Could you imagine a world where everyone thought of someone else besides themselves?

I think that could possibly could bring world peace. Somehow people might react different. Somehow people might wake up in a better mood. Think about.

Whenever it's Christmas and someone gets you a gift that you didn't expect at all.
How does that make you feel?
Happy right?
What about when you find some money on the ground?
What about when someone says... "I like that shirt"
You feel like "man I am having a great day"
What about the time someone offers to pay for your food and you say "no I am ok"

And they do it anyway. These are the moments that the universe needs more of. These are the moments that could change your life or someone else’s.

I am a believer in random acts of kindness.
I am also a strong believer in showing gratitude to others.

Do we know this statement to be true?

WE ARE ALL GOING THROUGH LIFE.
Why not help make someone else’s life a little bit better?

I am not saying go out and spend your paycheck on your rude coworker.
I am not saying give a compliment to ever person you see.
I am also not saying go without for another individual.
I am simply saying...

Think of someone else.
Think of a way to help someone in need.
Think of how you can possibly make someone’s day.

P.s. It’s almost Friday.

Yours Truly

Jasmine P.

 

Proof

Dear Inspirations,

In the misdt of me not having the best week of my life I reached a breakthrough of some sort.
I know this might not mean  much to you, but it means everything to me.
One of my post on Instagram reached 105 likes.
I assume a lot of people could relate to the post.
I must agree! It was one of those YES moments for me as well.
As I stated before I never created the page for the likes, I created it to help myself.
I considered it to be open therapy.
Once I continued posting  I realized it was also helping others.
When I say others I mean people that sometimes need an extra kick in motivation.
I am honestly proud of the growth in numbers that the page reaches daily.
You can say that I feel a sense of graditude when people comment saying "I needed this" or "right on time".
 Moments like that reinterate that DearJasmineP serves its true purpose.
To inspire. To motivate. To give hope. To share truths.
 I  know that I have been facing a lot of trials this week. Mentally and emotionally, but its always a storm before the calm right?

I know that I am facing these situations to make me a stronger person.
Some day I am sure I will get to write the world's best selling novel that will allow me to add moments like this.

You know those "I came from nothing.... One room... roaches.. and we didn't have any running water".
I think those stories are all similar to my story minus the roaches and the running water.

This blog is just to say thank you to all of the people that follow and like  DearJasmineP.
You are appreciated.
The struggle is going to end one day. 
The struggle is worth it.
The struggle can't last forever.

 

Yours Truly

Jasmine P.

Motivation for Monday

Dear Inspirations, 


Today I woke up feeling on top of the world!  Although my spring break is over and I am back to work I woke up with no hesitation.

 I think my hair is on point, my outfit was together and I even feel well rested.

It's almost strange because  over the weekend I suffered a setback.

 I think this is me really, really trying to practice what I preach wholeheartedly.

It's the first day of the week and I decided not to let anything steal my joy.

What's odd is the moment I said that it seem like the devil was like "BOOM! I am going to get you"

I had a small wardrobe malfunction now that alone can take you from a 10 to a 0, I was able to utilize my fashionista skills to pull it together.

Then my original plan for work was reassigned, (What I planned for today was no longer important and the copies I made no longer mattered) Don't you just hate when that happens.

Instantly I was  hit with a thousand negative thoughts. I quickly recovered those thoughts with a quick prayer.

Why am I sharing? I just wanted to let you know that even when you plan to be positive somethings will be thrown at you. The devil will TRY YOU.

 Even when you are prepared things will go wrong. Just TRY TO KEEP being POSITIVE. 

It's only Monday and I am sure there is more to come, but one thing I do know for sure is that I will keep going in this positive direction.  " My setbacks are a setup for a great comeback, This is not the end for me, this is only the beginning".

I know I have probably said this a thousand times and I am sure that I keep starting over and that's okay too.

Love Jasmine P.